♥ SERINADZIA.

Date : Tuesday, December 21, 2010

It's been months since I've last post an entry here. A lot have happened throughout this past 6 months. When's the last I blogged? July? I quit working Outback and I didn't contact Adi ever since. I had enough of him and his behaviour towards me throughout the 7 months with him. I met someone new in my life after which.

July, our campus moved out to ITE Choa Chu Kang and also, Floorball ITE Competition begun. I met Haqem during the league but it wasn't for long cause he's 23, and I think our minds are wide apart and we're better off as friends. July too I met Haiqi and Bulat. Both were great companion to me. Haiqi just broke up with his girlfriend that point of time and whereas Bulat was my old camp mate but we became close ever since we're in the same campus. Things get so tensed that I end up choosing Haiqi over Bulat. It was crucial that point of time. I didn't want to hurt Bulat and I didn't want disappoint Haiqi too.

August 09th, we became an item. We were sailing the boat smoothly for the past 4 months but we ended on December 1st. Too many things happen and it's too much for me to elaborate here. Whatever it is, being with him was the best moment I could ever asked for. He changed me alot. From the worst to good. Words can't explain how deeply I am in love with him till now that we're apart. I thank God for meeting him and having him all mine, for once. All I could do now is to pray for his return. He loves her and me too, but he wants the best for his princess. I understand and I'm glad that we're still keep in touch and close as before.

Dearest one, I will always be waiting for your return. I love you, forever...

Bidded @ 11:52:00 AM

Date : Saturday, July 10, 2010

It's nearly a month since I've last updated this page of mine. I guess this blog's gonna be dead anytime soon. Well, a short update about how I'm coping now. Adi and me have stopped contacting each other. I choose it, cause I can't bear to get hurt even more from him. And yes, eversince 11th June, we've not been contacting each other except for the fact that we bumped into each other on the 18th and I took my stuffs back from him on the 23rd and that's it. Silence. Good for me cause somehow the past 7 months with me, I was the one enduring with all this shits.

As for school, term break was over. And I've moved in to the new campus at Choa Chu Kang and it was awesome! Better environment, better mates and I'll never fail to look forward for school the next day. The timetable too's awesome. 8am to 12pm on every Mondays and Fridays and Tuesdays till Thursdays, 8am to either 4pm or 5pm. Oh and I've yet to report for work eversince 19th June. And I've decided to not work at Outback Steakhouse anymore. Reason because, no more kaki gerek, memories of Adi and me during work those days, Mr Mann resigned and I'm tired to travel.

On a lighter note, family and I are doing good over at Cik Eton's place, alhamdulillah. Mom's pay has increased. Father, hopeless and useless as usual. Hahaha! And oh, I'm going to be an aunt in a month to come. Kakak due date will be in midst August on end of July hopefully. They say it's a babygirl, I don't know. I'm fine with any actually. (: And yes, ITESC Floorball Tournament has begun and on Monday, Tuesday, West Team had play their best and we made it to the semi(s) last Thursday. Team 2 won third and as for my team, Team 1, we've made it to the finals this Wednesday again Simei. All the best girls.

And since I've quit Outback, I've got a new job, as a matchsec, for Singapore Floorball Guys' Team, Division 1. The league is starting tomorrow till end of July. And I'll be working on every Sundays, 9:30am till 7:30pm at Clementi Sports Hall. (: Pay wise, earning $300-$500 monthly. I'm loving the life that I'm leading now. No boyfriend, no commitments, keeping myself occupied with school and sports. Love life, I'll let nature takes it place.

Babygirls, NESHQ; I'm free on weekends, so please holla holla for meetups! (: Till then, I'll let this page update once in awhile, if not, find me in Facebook. (:

Bidded @ 3:14:00 PM

Date : Thursday, June 10, 2010

It's been awhile since I've last update this page. It's nearly 8am now and I'm off to school later at 10am. Life has been a rollercoaster ride for me. Family, friends, personal and financial. My mom, brother and I are shifted to Cik Eton's house last weekend due to the some personal reasons and conflicts with my another aunt and granny. New place, new environment. (: School, today marks our last day for this term and will only be resumes on 05th July, at Choa Chu Kang Campus! Yay, me can't wait. Hehehehe!

Friends and financial. I believe in this saying, “Friends come and go, true friends stays.” Yes, I never regret having NESHQ for the past 12 years and still going. They’ve always there no matter what. Girls, please make yourself free for a day for us to meet up over the holiday like those old times when we used to catch up and gossips. I miss those days. And as for my usual clan in school, yes I am keeping a distance from you guys. The reason is because I can’t take it anymore with your sarcasms and jokes, calling me bodoh and such. Yes I was okay with it last time. But now, it really pissed me off. To you guys, it might be a joke but to me, there’s limit in every joke. Sampai label BTL: Bodoh Takde Limit and such all. You know how hurt this is. Very.

And to you, we used to be so closed, sharing each and every stories together, but now we aren’t. I don’t blame you, nor do I blame myself. I blame us. Well enough said, that’s the past, we can’t simply rewind those days. And to the other girls, yes I was damn badly hurt when you girls just walk off like that when we’re having lunch in the canteen and you girls wanted to walk off when I was on the phone on my right hand, holding my stick on the other and struggling to get for my bag from the seat. None of you even waited for me, but instead you girls just walk off. And when one of you turn to look at me, you guys turn and continue walking. I was so hurt. The other mates who sat at the tables beside us, saw what happened.

Yada, no use saying when things are still the same. I’m tired of arguing and such. I’ll be better off alone. Oh and what’s with the, “contract dabes eh ngan kita?” Dude, please. If you aren’t the one who start labelling me as BTL, the rest won’t be disturbing me. No point talking cause I’ve made my mind to be alone. Whatever you guys wanna say, by all means. The clock strikes midnight on my birthday, none of you even wish me, some did but few hours or minutes later. It was utterly disappointment 18th Birthday celebration. I ditched my girls just because I thought you guys have something on for me, but nothing. It wasn’t on my actual day but later instead. Sighs.

Enough said, I don’t want this matter to be brought up again. Work, has been alright. Major renovation resuming this 05th July to the midst. ITE SC Floorball coming in a month’s time. Attachment soon in few months’. So many upcomings, I can’t wait to start attachment and graduate asap!

Adi Farhan, he’s back from Tioman from Thursday till Monday and came back with a bad news. One, he’s no longer working in Outback. Two, his NS letter has arrived and was posted to Tekong on 10th November. Sedih or what, like so fast. Yesterday, over to Serangoon Stadium to watch his match and they won! Congrats! And now that I’m at my aunt’s place, meeting him is so much nearer. Yay!

Faizal (Dust) ‘s 18th Birthday, on Monday, 07th June. The gang went to surprise him up, cook mee and ayam goreng and such and gave him a self made birthday card with our pictures in it, I hope he likes it. I was only home at 11pm after skipping my 1pm till 5pm’s lesson. Celebrated at Jurong West and somewhere near ArtPark. It was a blast!

Amirul went to Seoul Korea last Thursday and he’s coming back tonight, after training, am fetching him up, rindu oi with this idiot! Heh, alright, updates again soon, I’m off to shower and school and training.

Bidded @ 7:48:00 AM

Date : Monday, May 31, 2010

I know my blog has not been updated for the past 2 weeks? Well, that explains alot. Basically, everyday is the same daily routine for me. In the morning, Monday, Tuesday; school starts at 8am and ends either 4pm-5pm, Wednesday, Thursday; school starts at 10am and end either 4pm-5pm also. And as for Fridays, 8am-12pm but I've been skipping Friday lessons for the past 3 weeks I guess. That's for school. And as for work, I'll be working on Tuesday and Wednesday 6pm till closing and Friday and Saturday 5pm till closing. Training for school will be on Mondays and Thursdays and club training every Saturdays. How busy and occupied am I? Ya, I choose it this way so I shan't complain much.

Not to worry much, my exams are only starting on September and it's only a paper so as for now, I'll be busy with projects, presentations and class tests only. Yes, so that explains why I didn't update this page of mine. The minute I got home, unpacked my bag and get ready for tomorrow. Everyday's the same the same thing. It's tiring since I'll get short hours of sleep but I'm happy cause it keeps me occupied. Oh well, I think I need to go for a break during the holidays.

Outback will be closing for 3-4weeks in June-July (to be confirmed again) for extreme renovation. The concept will be changed to fine dining and the bar will be extended till the dishwasher area with new look and design. Wah, tak sabar oi! Also, half the restaurant will be sold over. Holidays in a few weeks' time and I so can't wait, yes more money hopefully.

How I'm doing? Well, life has been a real roller coaster ride for me. Friends, families and personal life.

Friends; I had a good long conversation with Nazzy love on the phone the other day, sharing everything with her. Yes, I miss us, the four of us. I am happy that I've still got them by my side no matter where I go, be it in my good and bad times. They're the best companion to understand what I'm going through. I thank God for having them for the past 12 years I'm living. I am so looking forward to meet them up and walk down the streets with eyes staring at us (cause that's basically happens whenever we go anywhere), gossipping and update each other on how we're doing. Girls, I really really miss you girls so much. :'( And yes, tears are rolling down as I'm typing this. Imagine, hearing Nazzy's voice on the phone the other day when she called I was crying for a minute or two before we even start talking.

Family; Once holidays are here, Mom and me and little brother will be shifting over to Cik Eton's house instead. I am tired with this life I'm going through. Father, if only you spare some thoughts for me, and the rest, this wouldn't be sucha burden for us. I got no more words to say but I'm hoping for the best for us. Once everything is settled, Mom is getting a new house for the three of us to stay together. And as for Kakak and Abg, her baby is already 6 months old and it's a girl. I can't wait to see my anak sedara! Yay, I'm going to be an Aunt soon. Heheh! And for brother, I am utterly disappointed with what you did the other day when HOD called Mom up. Father, you're better off dead!

School; I've been skipping school for the past few days. Last two week was worst. I attend lesson on Mondays and Thursday and then the following Monday and that's it. Absent throughout. Thanks to what I'm facing now made my mood of going school, is just not there. I've yet to share with her. Studies wise, so far so good. Thank god. Presentations and projects all the way for the meantime. ITE Training is now twice a week, Mondays and Thursdays and ITESC Competition is on the 6th July. I hope my girls can do better! Come on girls! (:

Love; I'm sick and tired to mention and sharing this. People around me has been advicing me to leave him (no, he's not my soulmate) as he ain't worth my love. I spent so much and done so much for him but what I get in return from his was all heartaches. For the past few days throughout this 6months, we've been having small arguments like almost every week. It's always every weekends and then back to track on Monday. If he changed, then it's good. Tell me, where can you get a girl, who still continue to date you when you know he's still meeting up with his ex girlfriend to go out and such, going JB with this girlfriend of his but he will ignore me whenever he's with her, caught him sleeping with two girls within two months behind my back, going holidays with ex girlfriend and family for 5 days without even telling me when he left and when he's coming back, spent so much on him in a day, be it in a month, buying stuffs for him every month, (Reef slippers, Puma cargo pants and to the extend of a first grade boot from Adidas). You tell me?! When we're not even an item! Yes you guys can say that I shouldn't be buying him all this. He didn't ask for it directly, but I tend to buy for him now and then. Sighs. I really am at lost.

I distress myself out the other day, watch his match over at St Wilfred Sports Complex and afterwhich Rebel for Ladies' Night with the usual party people and drinks over at Yello Jello with the colleagues and Cuba Libre too the other day after work. Yes, I'll be partying whenever I'm facing too much problems. The night at Rebel with the gang was an awesome one! Thanks alot people! And yes, I'm much more closer with Sam baby as for now. Thanks babygirl for the listening ears. And Alysha baby, I can't wait for the chalet, updates soon k, love!

And the past Saturday and Sunday, Warriors had training over at Vall Hall and I went work afterwhich, also friendly against NYP and we lost to them and yesterday was Floorball 4 U Competition over at Vall Hall. We lost but merged third for our category. And awesome day spent with the floorball mates over at Kallang Leisure Park for dinner! Meet soon k korangs for Faizal's birthday! (:

I guess, this blog will be updated when I feel like to. As for now, take care and I'm always updating through Facebook. (:

Bidded @ 9:29:00 AM

Date : Tuesday, May 11, 2010

I'll keep my blog updated in point form since I don't want it to be too draggy and boring cause there ain't much pictures to be shared with. So here it goes, readers. (:

Friday, 30th April 2010.

Skipped school, woke up at 12pm
Meet Kakak, over to Causeway Point, bought iPhone, new line
Lunch at Banquet with her till 2pm
Fought with Adi and meet him up at Long John Silver and both paitao-ed work
Talk things out, then over to Level 4
Bought tickets for Ip Man with Julia and Faiz tagging us along (his siblings)
Show ended at 7pm, I meet Kakak and Abg Noi to pass handphone charger, while they left home to get change
Planning to head town with Adi and siblings but they paitao-ed me, so Starbucks alone
Adi's brother, Faiz, meet me up for dinner at KFC then meet his gf and slack till 11pm

Saturday, 01st May 2010.

Woke up at 2pm, rot till 5pm until Adi called
Paitao work since I'm too tired and lazy and had plans before which
Cabbed to Somerset, Cineleisure at 7pm; meet Adi and Wan
Wanted to catch Iron Man II but full house
Wan left home, Adi and myself shop from Heeren then to ION
From Heeren to ION; we fought and threw faces
ION; Uniclo; da okay and he bought boxers
8:30pm; He left and I meet Samantha
Dinner at Cahaya, dessert at Ben & Jerry's till 10pm
10:30pm; 190ed to Clarke Quay
12am; Enter Rebel then to Zirca and then in the end, stay at Rebel till dawn
Breakfast with Salhan and Co till 6:30am

Sunday, 02nd May 2010.

Slept at 8am after washing up and woke up only at 5pm
Rot at home and didn't even pack for school stuffs
Slept later at 3am

Monday, 03rd May 2010.

Skipped school, woke up at 3pm, cabbed down to work at 6pm
Left early and home alone afterwhich

Tuesday, 04th May 2010.

PSM at 8am till 10am
ETP at 10am till 12pm
Lunch with the girls, Sam came over
EBA at 1pm till 3pm
Off to work (6pm), 106ed with *
End work early, home alone afterwhich

Wednesday, 05th May 2010.

PSM at 10am till 12pm
Dismissed early, QM help out with Mr Nat's birthday card
12pm-1pm; lunch with the girls
1pm-3pm; ETP and Mr Nat birthday surprise with the class QM
3pm-5pm; EBA and we slack, dismissed at 4pm
106ed with Shaiful and Azhar as well
Work at 6pm and Simon and Adi and Pria was working
7/11 with them first, tiff with Adi and I nearly left first
Home together afterwhich

Thursday, 06th May 2010.

PSM; 10am-12pm, did tutorial
12pm-1pm; Lunch then over to 201 slack
1pm-3pm;EBA then rushed to work alone later at 4pm
Work (6pm); Hostess!
Home afterwhich, fought with Adi and I left home first leaving them behind

Friday, 07th May 2010.

Skipped school and off to work at 5pm shift
Bumped into 'Aini and Syahrul in the train
Adi starts at 7pm, restaurant wasn't busy
End at 11pm, over to Cathay for movie, with Abu along
Back Up Plan later at 01:50am till 03:30am
Cabbed back home afterwhich

Saturday, 08th May 2010.

Rot home the whole day
Adi skipped work
On the phone with him till dawn
Wanted to go fishing but cancelled

Sunday, 09th May 2010.

Woke up at 2pm, rot till evening
Found out something about Adi
Fought throughout from 6pm till 6am the next day

Monday, 10th May 2010.

Abg Noi sent me to school, 8am-10am; ETP presentation
10am-12pm; PSM, Ms Joy Koh took us instead
12pm-1pm; lunch with the usual then over to 201
1pm-3pm; SW, ran outside school compoud, Captain's Ball
3pm-5pm; EBA but I left at 4pm for training
Floorball training at MPH from 4:30pm till 7pm
April Intake students were there as well
8pm; dinner over at Woodlands, 11pm; home
11pm till dawn; Fought with Adi again

Tuesday, 11th May 2010.

Abg Noi sent me to school, 8am-10am; PSM
10am-12pm: ETP; slack throughout
12pm-1pm; Lunch with the girls
1pm-2pm; EBA; dismiss early
963ed home straight
Kakak and Amirul and myself head home together
Mee Soto, bubble tea for dinner

Yes, things between me and Adi are in terrible mess. The same old shit repeats again. He promised me that he'll changed and yes, promises are meant to be broken and he did. Ain't surprised though. This fourth-fifth month was a very hectic one, problems by problems. And it's all starts with him. Don't come and tell me saying I'm too sensitive or overprotective. Is your behaviour that made me behave this way, boy. I wouldn't care and bother much if I didn't love you, wholeheartedly. Yes, you mean so much to me, but I don't know if I mean so much to you. You're having fun out there, behind my back and I'm here swallowing all the single shits you've done. And I am here too being very extremely nice to you, to eventually forgive all your shits and give you chances but still I see, the same old Adi. Please change for the better. I am tired. And I feel like ending it. But you? You have been the one making me feeling so weak and to ask to stay. No, we're not together, nor are we an item. I don't even know what are we. Please stop lying and please change. I want this to be the last. (I know it won't.)

Sighs. FML.

GUYS + LOVE = HEARTACHES! :(

Bidded @ 9:30:00 PM